The story of an ex-devotee

WARNING: this page contains material of sexual and explicit nature, which could hurt the sensibility of those reading here, and particularly the sensibility of those having faith in Sai Baba. This as a due warning: please refrain from reading this page, if you get hurted by this arguments, or if as a Sai Baba devoted person you couldn't bear this story.




I am 35 years old and interested in spiritual matters since my childhood. In October 1988 I became an ardent follower of Sathya Sai Baba and came to Puttaparthi for the first time in 09.09.1989. Since then I visited Puttaparthi regularly every year and was totally absorbed in the "aura" of Sathya Sai Baba. I was fully convinced about his avatarhood and became so devoted to Sathya Sai Baba that I was thinking and contemplating all the time about him alone. Even though I could get a copy from Tal Brookeīs book "Lord of the Air" in 1989 I did not believe Tal Brookeīs story when I went through his book. I thought Tal only wants to decry Baba and I was just ignoring the facts.

Over the years I had hundreds of Darshans from Sai Baba at the Darshan place as well as in the mandir but never an interview. In 1993 I became a little bit suspicious about Sai Babaīs lifestyle and the activities in the ashram. Every year I could see new costly buildings (VIP-building, Museum a.s.o.) and I felt that an increasing commercialization of the ashram was going on. Once I saw Sai Baba in 1996 leaving the Whitefield ashram with a costly "Jaguar" and felt very nervous when I saw other costly cars like Mercedes and BMW of the big class.

Anyway I still believed in Baba to be the Kalkiavatar of the age. On the 17th of January 1996 I got the first interview and he was very kind telling me nice things like: "I will give you everything". Then he touched my head and gently stroke my head. He said: "I know your not sure about your life and future and so on. Also unhappiness from women. I know donīt worry. Also you have some bad thoughts, not good." Then he said: "I give you everything according to health, spirituality, and life. Everything". He said: "I give you infinite love"." You and me will become one". I touched his orange robe and he put his hand on the top of my head. He said: "I explain you", "I give you again seperate interview". On 20th of January 1996 I got the second interview and he always establish a strange eye-contact even the days before the interview to the person he selects.

I and my wife went to the interview and this time he was very disappointed seeing me together with my wife. He took me alone in the interview room and he said: "She is old and diseased and is much older than you, please seperate from her". I was really shocked. She is attached to me and I only told Baba to give her some spiritual instructions because of that. But he had something else in his mind. Then he started kissing me on my lips for some time and later he materialized some oil which he applied on my stomach and the place above my genitals. When my wife entered the private interview room he told her: "Either you seperate from him or I throw you out of Puttaparthi". He looked very wild (my wife told me afterwards) and she shivered all over the body.

In Whitefield he saw me again after some days and asked at the Darshan place whether I have seperated or not. I said: "Not yet". He turned away and  shouted that all people could hear: "Bad, Bad boy"!!! He radiated such an evil aura and was so aggressive that I was really shocked. I immediately left Whitefield and contacted my wife. We went North to India for some pilgrimage. This was the turning point. I decided to go once more to Sai Baba to clearify the  matter.

At the end of the year 1996 I came to India and went to Sai Baba for  Darshan. After some time when I arrived in Puttaparthi I went in the Mandir for Bhajanīs. Here I experienced a very strange phenomena. Before Baba came in the mandir  I was sitting beside a open window and chanted some mantras. All of a sudden I heard people whispering and everybody looked to the window. Baba looked inside the mandir from outside and for a second our eyes have met. In this very moment I saw the form of a lingam or say "penis" in my mind and I was wondering what that mean. I was sure that it was no imagination and  no thought from my unconcious mind. It was his thought planted in my mind for unknown reason. When I got a third interview on 4th of December 1996 he took me in the interview and he said: "You are also a Hitler", and I was asking myself: "He is not very kind, isnīt he?" Nevertheless in the interview the greedy old man kissed me on my lips.

On 28th December 1996 I was again called for an interview. In this interview he materialized a golden ring for me but it does not fit well to my finger inspite of his blow on the ring. He always asks: "How many". Now I know for what reason. In the private chamber (Of Horror) he said: "Come!" He kissed  me again on my lips for some time and this time I resisted and he gurgled: "Have no fear". I said: "I have no fear" and then he said: "This is a good opportunity, so many are waiting for months and will not get!" Then his vibration changed totally and I had some fear. Like a command he asked me to remove my trousers unzipped my flies and went with his right hand into my underpants...

Sathya Sai Baba the "Divine" touched and massaged my genitals unasked. He expected some erection but this did not happen for I donīt feel any sexual excitement, no lust in the presence of an seventy years old man. I also came not to Puttaparthi for such games. Sathya Sai Baba was disappointed and said: "It is very weak, dont waste energy!" What a strange excuse. When I saw him I realized the truth about him and was shocked indeed. He had such a evil vibration. Afterwards He sent me out of the room.

Back in Germany I did intense research on the internet and came across an article from Jed Geyerhahn and was very happy to have found somebody with similar experiences. As I had still some stuff (luggage) there in Puttaparthi I took two pages with me and in November 1999 I went to Puttaparthi to discuss the matter with some friends. Unfortunately some crazy lady came into possession of the material and brought it to the police station of Puttaparthi to Mr.Reddy. There I went to some interrogation. I was asked fromwhom I got the material and what would be the password. I told them that India is a still a Democracy and I can carry whatever material I have with me. But they were not cooperative. Finally they took my passport away and the inspector said: "Unless you give me the password and the name of the person I declare you guilty and will not allow you to leave Puttaparthi." Just imagine what kind of dictatorship it was. I have several witnesses for this incident (one American from Seattle now living in San Marcos and my wife itself). I had another appointment on 1st of December the day I intended to go to Delhi. But without passport wouldnīt be possible. On 30th of November 1999 late in the evening two people one whom I know and a unknown person came to me and warned me that my life would be in danger. I should leave Puttaparthi very soon. I left Puttaparthi the next early morning and went to Delhi. Even at Dharmavaram the police was searching for us. But we entered the train at Anantapur where there is a police station near the platform. My wife seperated from me to avoid problems. She heard a group of policemen talking in Telugu searching for somebody and could only catch the words passport, Delhi and Telegram. We were in serious danger but fortunately we could escape from the hell "Puttaparthi" and reached Delhi where I got a travel permit from the embassy of Germany.

I told them my case and the official said that a protest note would be sent to the INDIAN Government. He told me that such a act is illegal and they know about similar cases. I also want to inform you that I saw at the police station that the policeman had a bunch of passports in his hand.

I also want to let you know that Baba was willing to leave Puttaparthi on 28th of November 1999 for Bangalore or a heart treatment but he didnīt because of the internet story. This is known to me from the police inspector who blamed me for having brought the internet pages to PUTTAPARTHI: The "TRUST" is very concerned about the internet.

Further I want to let you know (in case you do not know) that Sathya Sai Baba was not born in Puttaparthi but in Karnatakka-Nagepalle village near Puttaparthi. The place can still be seen and I have a photo from this place. Baba's mother came from this place and according to tradition she has to deliver the child where she comes from. I know it from a person who was born in Puttaparthi and leaves there for over 40 years. The villager said it's an open secret, everyone knows but is fearful to say it openly. You see from the very beginning Baba and his followers were lying. I hope that this nightmare comes to an end and I hope that by the Grace of the Almighty all people around the globe know about the misdeeds of Sathya Sai Baba a mighty demon who came in the disguise of a spurious saint.


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